So its been an eternity since i've written here. Everyday i open this up and i never actually write anything, but today is different!

So my entry today is about all the people who keep coming back into my life this year. First it was Nona and Sarah, now its Ayah and i hear Ya7ya is planning to come back to.

All these people left long time ago, some i barely had contact with but now i can't wait to have them in my life, they're soo amazingly fun! I hope they hang around for a while!

Second is HAJJ! Ya rab everyone seems to talk about Hajj this time of year and i love it but it annoys me at the same time, all these people saying "i wanna go i wanna go" but they never actually make an effort to do it! Yessh people, effort! PLEASE!

So after Hajj time, comes EID TIME! YEEEEEEEAAAAA! im so excited for it! but i know its not gonna be that fun this time! Everyone has finals and everyone is gonna be tired, most people won't come to prayer and that day will be horrible! But second day will hopefully be better! Wait there's always the possibility of Khala Mona's on wednesday so MAYBE that will be fun? Ayah is here so yeah maybe it will be good!

Hope for me!

You Are Most Like Eva Longoria

“There's something very sexy about being submissive.”

lol me sumbissive?? lol they must have messed up on this quiz!! but i'll take it anyway!!

my grandma died yesterday.....



im leaving for libya on monday....




im dying inside....




i need support....




i need sarah!!

1. Do you like and/or love anyone?:
hmmm what a question... YES!!

2. Do they know it? :
They Sure Do!!

3. Simple or complicated?
Complicated doesn't begin to cover it!!

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U
4. Had sex: nopes
5. Bought something: hells yeah
6. Gotten sick?: i get sick every week
7. Been hugged?: lol yes!!
8. Felt stupid?: yups!!
9. Talked to an ex: ummm.....
10. Missed someone: OMG YES YES YES!! TOO MANY PPL TO NAME!!
11. Failed a test: NEVER!!!
13. Danced: bellydancer baby!!
14. Gotten your hair cut?: NOpes... that will be done soon tho!!
15. Lied: umm sure...

U N I Q U E

16. Nervous habits?: tapping my feet...
17. Are you double jointed?: no but im super flexable!!
18. Can you roll your tounge?: ummm huh??
19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: lol yeah and its not as hard as it looks...
20. Can you cross your eyes?: yeah... but i prefer not to....
21. Do you make your bed daily?: HELLS NO!!
22. Do you think you are unique?: umm sure???

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

23. Said "I Love you": those three shitty words... take them out of the english vocabulary...
24. Given money to a homeless person: nah
25. Smoked?: nopes... have a bad feeling its heading my way tho...
26. Waited all night for a phone call? nah..
27. Snuck out?: lol... LOL
28. Sat and looked at the stars?: yups... i made a necklace of the ones i caught....

M A N N E R S

29. Do you swear/curse?: ummm yeah... shut up u know u do 2!!
30. Do you ever spit?: I would die!!
32. You do your own chores? umm yeah
33. You like beef jerky?: Ummm NO!!
34. You're happy with your life?: most ppl would be so why shouldn't i??
35. You own a dog?: i used to...
36. You spend your money wisely?: LOL ME SPEND WIsELY!!!! NO!!
37. Do you like to swim?: SO MUCH!!
38. When you get bored do you call a friend: um no i don't actually... i wonder why??

WHAT - DO - Y O U - P R E F E R'S

39. Flowers or angels?: wth??? ummm flowers??
40. Gray or black?: black
41. Color or black and white photos?: matters my mood
42. Lust or love?: L.O.V.E.
43. Sunrise or sunset?: sunset... no doubt
44. M&Ms or Skittles?: lol M&Ms for reasons beyond ur comprehension
45. Staying up late or waking up early?: Staying UP!!! im a night owl...
46. Being hot or cold?: HOT!!!
47. Winter or Fall?: fall no doubt!!
48. Left or right?: umm right
49. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?: 2 best friends
50. Sunshine or rain? Rain Rain Rain... then sunshine
51. Goth or emo? ummm neither?!?!

M O R E - H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

Sleep in a bed with the opposite sex?:ummmm never.
Hooked up in the woods?: never.
Drank a bottle of alcohol by yourself?: never
Stolen money from a friend?: nevers.
Slept naked?: ummm never
Snuck out of your house?: nopes...
Had a crush on a teacher?: LOL NEVER!!
Seen someone die?: thank gawd NEVER!!
Been on an airplane? yups love planes
Slept all day?: like 24 hours straight?? nopes never
Missed someone so much it hurt?: I miss this person even when they're with me
Fallen asleep IN SCHOOL?: nopes
Cheated in a game?: yes...
Been to the ER?: lol well im a doctors daughter so many many many times...
Been in a car accident?: thank gawd no
Had detention?: umm sure
Missed your first love?: i still love my first love...
Cried yourself to sleep?: umm yeah
Sung in the shower?: lol nopes
Kissed a complete stranger?: never
Laughed so hard you cried?: umm yeah!! lol good times!!
Cheated on a bf/gf?: never.
Regretted hurting someone?: ummm i dunno about this one... get back to me
Regretted loving someone?: nah don't think so...
Been SUPER happy?: lol yeah
Have your heart broken?: how many times??? don't bother counting...

Miss Bluey!! thanks for this!! mwahs loving u!!

You Are a Total Tease

You're all about flirting and fun, but you often give guys the wrong idea Most men think they have a chance with you... but come on! You've got high standards, and most men you flirt with aren't going to make the grade And while your tease act will work for a while, every guy you know will eventually be the wiser

LOL OMG!!! someone just told me that a little while ago... this makes me laugh!!

ok so like im totally bored at the moment so i thought what the heck lets just write something here since i totally neglect my poor journal.

so what have i been up to l8ly?? nothing really... i guess... i was in edmonton... yeah didn't do any shopping at the mall... that stuid mall needs like a week to be looked through properly... i had like a day... i really wanted some things but my mother gave me a budget... do u wanna guess how much it was??? $100 yup thats all!! i know insane huh? but yeah... its all good...

my aunt is coming in the summer and we are going to Calgary with her so i'll shop there... I LOVE CALGARY!! i swear... everything there is so... prestigious!! lol ok yeah enuph of me...

hmmm we are trying to get my mom to let us go to Ohio in the summer to visit our aunts there but she's like NO!! ur aunt is coming here so like suck it up we're not going anywhere... i don't get it she totally knows we wanna like go places and she knows how well we clicked with those cuzins last time so i dunno why she won't go?? like wtf??? for real now!! it'd be so much fun!! but yeah thats not gonna happen any time soon.

I think "Shannon" is stalking me!! i swear... that "gurl" totally gets on my nerves... "she" was like yelling at me today for the stupidest question... its like come ON!! im in front of u PLEASE DON'T YELL!! gawd that "gurl"...

hmmm sarah ur leaving me huh?? a little over a month and ur gone?? *cries* imma miss u!!

ok thats all from me today!! Love ya!!

You Are 25% Fake

The real you is something you embrace and don't mind enhancing. You know that a few beauty secrets aren't a big deal, as long as you look good.

Lol u should see the things they have in this Quiz!!! loved it tho!!

Classic Halter Dress

Classy and sexy, you know how to make a lasting impression without having an outrageous dress.

Cool Cool!! i kinda like that...


Ok so on to more important things... man i haven't written in here in so long... i sorta feel bad... but here it goes... EVERYTHING IS SO GOOD!!! im so damn happy... lol i always am... and sarah if u see this before saturday im gonna be at khala Amnas... lol we can party together... lol as if... but yeah... OMG WHAT AM I GONNA WEAR!?!?! lol u knew that was coming... lol wow im "lol"ing a lot... ok thats all i have time for but im glad i updated!! Mwah Love ya All!!

alrighty im at skool and im really bored... *sigh* this stupid university thing is so damn annoying.... its too early for me to worry about anything other than what im taking to Edmonton with me... w/e...

Ok so yesterday was sarah's bday... HAPPY BDAY by the way.. lol as if i didn't say that like 20 times... never gets old... i still don't know what u want..

TOday is Ahlam's bday but yeah i won't get her a pressent...we're not that close... yeah

ok i have to go teacher is getting suspecious...


MWAH!! love ya!!

Your Style is 1980s

Bright colors, bigger than life patterns, and outrageous fashions. Your fashion style always has a retro yet futuristic edge.

OMG EWWWW!!!! EW EW EW EW!!! *dies*

You Are 47% Bitchy

Generally, you're an average woman, with average moods. But sometimes... well, watch out! Sometimes, you let your mean side get the better of you. And you enjoy every minute of it.

LOL ok i guess... i thought i'd get worse

Your Inner Eye Color Is Blue

You've got the personality of a blue eyed women You're intense and expressive - and always on the go You've also got a sweet, playful side - which draws men in

Cool!! alright i can live with that

You Are Big Black Boots!

You can be best described as: attitude You've got lots of it - and you love to give it A guy has to be pretty gusty to hit on you But if he's your type, you'll warm up... a little

Ummm.... *blinks*

You've Got Guys Lined Up Around the Block

While your little black book isn't as thick as Paris Hilton's... You get the most dates of any girl you know It's your whole five star package that attracts men - Your looks, your charm, and your ability tie a cherry with your tongue.

LOL DAMN RIGHT!!

You Are 64% Girly

You're a pretty girly chick, and you're not ashamed to admit it (or wear pink). But you're also practical. You can hang with the guys, as long as they're not too gross!

lol i thought i'd get more but ok!!! im fine with that!!

Ok so summer is on its way and i can't wait... wallahi i need to be out of skool... i need to get away from ppl... i need to get out of the country!!!! too bad it won't happen!!! i can't stay in this town... I NEED A TAN!!!! wallahi i feel sooo pale!!! like ick i don't like being pale!!! ok i sound like a freak!!!! i want to have nuthing to worry about... i wanna sit outside in the backyard in capris and a tank top... i wanna run in the water... i wanna find cute colourful (pink lol sarah) clothes to look good in... i want to go on walks with sarah... i wanna play basketball... i wanna get a bike and ride to Rabab with Sarah and go somewhere... i wanna go see movies and not care what i have to do instead... i want to sleep in and wake up late and open my window to fresh summer air... i want freshly squeezed orange juice... i wanna walk behind Dilawri's house and feel jealous... i want to go n picnics with everyone... i want to flirt with hot tan bois... i want to get the new Versace sunglasses that i saw n the net... i want to go for a run and shrink my gawd damn thighs... i want...I WANT SUMMER!!!!

ok this is officially done!!! thank you all for being so polite and listening!!!

You Belong in Milan

Stylish and sophisticated, you want to enjoy a truly European life - away from tourists! Milan fits you perfectly. Great shopping, high quality food, lots of culture... with very little hype.

YAY!!! the city i wanted!!!

All American Kid

Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain. You were well rounded and well liked in high school.

ok... well aiight...

Your French Name is:

Brigitte Cousinot

ok cool name.. i guess...

Your Japanese Name Is...

Rin Kobayashi

Ok SSSUUUUUURRRREEEE!!!

You Should Weigh 150

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight. If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!

OMG NO!!!

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

ok... umm i didn't answer this one truthfully... the questions were too long...

Men See You As Playful

Men want a challenge and you are the perfect playmate You know how to push men's buttons and attract a wide range of guys You enjoy living and loving - it's one of your most attractive qualities Men are often consumed with desire for you, and you love that!

awww me and bluey got the same...

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

OMg TOO PERFEcT!!!!

You Are a Strawberry Blonde

Men see you as flirtatious, but they also see you as a challenge Because you're totally fearless and carefree You've got the lightheartedness of a blonde, with the attitude of a redhead

Umm confession... im thinking about going blond... *blush*

You Should Get a Rose Tattoo

Sexy and classic You are pure rock and roll, party girl. So is your tattoo.

i LOVE it!!!

ok enuph back to homework!!! luv u guys!!!

You Are Strawberry Kiss Lip Gloss

When it comes to life, you want the best of everything: The best clothes, the best friends, the best guy - and you usually get all three. You impress most people you meet with your genuine class and style Strawberry is a classic, admired flavor that goes with many things. Sound familar?

Im alright with that!!! i already use strawberry!!

Your Vibe Is Somewhat Sexy

On a good day, you're the sexiest woman in the world But on a bad day, you can't help but feel a little average Try to remember the times you've felt the sexiest... And keep that attitude even on the worst of days

WHAT?!?!?! this quiz is crazy... im ALWAYS sexy!!! pissh.... jokes...

You Should Be In TLC

You aren't afraid to speak (or sing!) your mind Your sassy attitude shines - and you totally keep it real.

OOO I LIKE THAT!!!

Your Makeup Look Is

Dramatic Eyes with Naked Lips You rock an edgy, modern look with feminine grace

wow i thought i was more about my lips... *shrugs* guess not... no i am...

Your Gemstone is Amber

Creative, happy, and logical. You shine in any intellectual endeavor

umm aiight...

Your Ideal Hairstyle:

Sexy Waves

Ook SURE!!!!

So have i ever expressed my love for coffee bdfore??? well I LOVE COFFEE!! yes im obssessed and im not i repeat IM NOT afraid to say it... i especially love Starbucks coffee... i mean honestly how do they get it so perfect??? gawd i love them... i also LOVE LOVE their Mocha Frapachino(am i spelling that right??) well yeah u get my point...

and im sick... i have this wicked pain in my ears... its honestly killing me... i dunno whats wrong... it hurts soo bad... gawd... i went to the doctor and she just told me to have a few warm drink and to do this drops in ur ear medicine shit... w/e... its my excuse tho to not go to skool this friday... imma come home and be like on the verge of tears... lol im so bad... u love me anyway...

so yeah time for a few quizes... here they are

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

Aww i wonder if its true??? what do u think??

Your Flirt Quotient

You are 60% Flirt

LOL i thought i'd get like an 80% or something...im so flirty... but i like the 60% its a good score

You Are a Soy Latte

Yeah, you've got a bit of that healthy hippie thing going on But you're more Kate Hudson urban bohemian than Phish groupie You're worldly and well traveled.. and you know where to get the best coffee in town. All your experience makes you a compassionate person - and a caring girlfriend.

SOY LATTE??? HELL NO!!! gawd ick!!!ick ick ick!!

1. Honestly, are you happy right now? sure i am!!

2. Honestly, what color is your underwear? umm blue

3. Honestly, whats on your mind right now? ummm hehe... someone

4. Honestly, what are you doing right now? doing this thing when i should be doing math

5. Honestly, what did you do today? skool, nap, food, nap, here

6. Honestly, do you think you are attractive? sometimes..

7. Honestly, have you done something bad today? um whats "bad"

8. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? lol when we had it yes...

9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? right NOW!! nope...

10. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? umm my family (when we're not fighting) my friends, and ummm that certain someone when he's not being an ass

11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? sometimes

12. Honestly, what is your mood right now? bored...

13. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? umm no but i think i will one day... hey im not proud of that im just saying...

14. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? YES!!! Arwa i miss u!!! and someone else...

15. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? hehe yes

16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now? nope... im loving ppl right now

17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now? ummmm.... honestly??? ok fine sarah u know who... ur the only one reading anyway

18. Honestly, are you loyal? OFCOURSE

19. Honestly, are you in denial? don't think so...

20. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now? um no...

21. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol? nope never!!!

22. Honestly, do you like someone? HEHE yes *giggles*

23. Honestly, does anyone like you? everyone likes me

24. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? ummm who???

25. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly? yes... all of them...

So im sick... i have the worst headache and i have a soar throught, my back hurts, i feel like im gonna puke... i just basically feel like crap....

so this weekend was a bit buy and all with Khala Muna's and the Libyan thing (that Arwa wasn't at but we talked with her on the phone like the wole time) and today im sick so yeah...

and i talked to "Shanon" this what was it??? Friday??? yeah yeah thats it... right before we left... i asked her if she knew who i was since i changed my email and she didn't and i sorta got mad and took it maybe a little to far... but *shrugs* "she" deserves it... "she" really does... but im too tired to write anything else... im gonna try working on homework...

later....

You know you love me...